Sunday, December 27, 2009 12/27/2009 11:35:00 PM

im not sure about myself

♥Thanks to kenny, im crazily into abracadabra by the brown eyes girls. (:
Seems that im starting to pick up the dance steps due to the repetitive replay of the youtube video!

I am feeling so emo out of the sudden. Don't feel like working tmr because of the long working hours. Not that i can't take hardship, it's just that i only have 2 weeks holidays to rest before the study battle starts again. Can somebody help to cover my shift tmr? I don't think anyone's listening. So just forget it, jingfen!

I've been rather inactive in my youth lately, or has it been this case all the while? Due to my personal commitments and part-time job, i was unable to go for events or plan out my events nicely and in an orderly manner. I just need a breather sometimes, and the more i take the chance to breathe, the more i need to. That is why my work has owas been hanging halfway there. I guess if i continue this way, i will be out-casted by my clique in the youth soon? Maybe i just can't have both the worlds in my hands. Just sometimes, when i see the photos taken during the event, i will feel so envy.

I've becoming lazier and lazier each day, and only the love spurs me on and let me carry on with my life as per normal. Im so dead to rely on love so much. I need to change.

Thanks laogong for the super sweet present.
Thanks yz for the christmas present.

4 more days to end of year 2009...

Saturday, December 26, 2009 12/26/2009 10:32:00 PM

discover sth new

♥I've discover sth new about myself.
Some new changes which i didnt take notice of.

After being attached, I realised i am beginning to dislike going to crowded places ssuch as orchard roads. I would rather go over to Jurong Point to hang out or just simply stay at home with my darling and have some home-made dinner with him.

Am i getting on my age or what? I don't know.

Normally during x`mas eve, i would always go orchard and count down. But this time round, I went to bed as normal like it wasn't x`mas. HAHAA.

Well, maybe i changed and becoming more and more introvert? I don't know.

ANyways, thank you all for wishing me and calling me WHEN I WAS ABOUT TO SLP. (:

Thanks, i really appreciate it.

MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS PPL! ENJOY YOUR WARMEST DINNER GATHERING AND FESTIVE SEASON.

P.S Woohoo, it's 5 more days to the end of YEAR 2009.

Tuesday, December 22, 2009 12/22/2009 12:24:00 AM

drained totally.

♥after being trapped like a sandwich having to make stupid decisions, i decide to just send in my resume first. my mom asked me if i send my resume and say if can go just go. but i know what my heart wants. it wants to stay it singapore. let's just see how later.

i've been feeling quite exhausted for past few days. selling bird food and still have to bear the bird's consistent "love bites" on my fingers, ears and neck. they were very naughty but adorable. i love them. srsly if i were to quit one day, i might just miss those birds alot?

working tmr and the day after, due to the lack of ppl again, THANKS to the dinosaur fair that will be going on for the next 2 months plus plus. i am so dead and they will be even dead if i quit now.

okay ah, im going to bed.

cya all.

Friday, December 18, 2009 12/18/2009 12:13:00 PM

confused state

♥it's been a long week since i've blog.

today is the last paper i am having. i should be feeling happy.
however, im being binded by some major decisions in my life.

to china for internship, or stay in sg for in-house?
since i know i've gotten a place in bemobile project, i've decided to stay in sg.
but recently, the internship lecturer called me and inform me to send him a resume for the china internship.

then i heard if i don't intend to go, then it's better not to send in my resume.
because if i send in, and suay suay the company picks me, den it's hard for me to reject.

i sent a msg to the lecturer today, and then he asked me to call him to talk about this matter.
then he said i stand a better chance because my BIS got grade AD.
And furthermore, i am a MBS student though there is another girl who is in IT who stands a higher chance too.

hearing those, not very good news to me.
because of this, i've been thinking whether i should go ahead anot.
there are way too many things that are holding me back.

maybe i am just afraid, afraid that i will need to sacrifice something for this trip.
what should i do?

i srsly don't know.

Thursday, December 10, 2009 12/10/2009 01:30:00 AM

Arrrrggghhhhhhhhhhhhh

♥ARGH, DAMN IT.

I AM SO STRESSED.

WHY ARE THERE STILL THOSE STUPID DAMN IT PROJECTS GOING ON ON STUDY WEEK?!

I HATE NP. I SRSLY DO!!!


GO TO HELL, YOU DAMN CT.
I had enough!

Saturday, December 5, 2009 12/05/2009 11:57:00 PM

the 301th moment

Thursday, December 3, 2009 12/03/2009 11:54:00 PM

The 300th Time in my Life

♥This is my 300th post. (:

These few days have been crappy for me. Not sure why, but just that many things dont go well for me. It just made me realised that i've been spending my attention on things which doesnt deserve my attention at all. I have wasted my time. SRSLY!

Getting too slack, until when there are things for me to do, i dont get them completed. So at some point of time, i realised i need a breather, but i dont have time to. I still have yet to kick my bad habit of ignoring things which i need to do and use my BRAIN and figure out what exactly are the things i need to complete. I guess if i still continue on in this way, my life will be gone in split seconds.

Just sometimes, i dont understand why. The people you dont wish to see, will keep appearing in front of you. Just out of 4 days, i've seen this person 3 times. I srsly have had enough. I am sick and tired of worrying time and again. I am not gonna pay my attention to this person anymore. Or maybe in the first place, my attention wasn't on him/her. It's on somebody's.

I am tired of worrying, worrying about things which i don't have to worry about. Im srsly finding trouble and unecessary worries for myself. I dont understand why.


but no matter how hard life is for me, i realised,
I am happier than I was before.

Tuesday, December 1, 2009 12/01/2009 01:39:00 PM

Seasons

Tuesday, November 24, 2009 11/24/2009 10:47:00 PM

BAGUS

♥Jingfen has become a good girl now.

She slps early,
eats her meals "More" regularly,
does her homework,
watch her online shows,
and do her exercise regularly.

Previously, she
slps very late until she become one of the china pandas,
has irregular meals that make her gastric all the time,
doesnt do her homework only until last min,
doesnt have shows that attract her,
and doesnt do her exercise regularly that she gain so much weight.

These few days has been really packed and messed up for me.
Tho i seems calm and relax, seems like i have nothing to do.
But, in actual fact, i have many things to do, just that i didnt bother to go do it.

Common tests are coming up, and i am still confused about what is going on in every modules of mine. I am in deep shit. CHUI.
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Somehow, I am very sensitive about the ppl around me. and my sensitivity is getting worst. Tho im sensitive, i am still clear-headed of what is going on. So not to worry. It's not like my mind is getting over my heart. (:

There are some things that had changed over time which only now den I realised.
I am not sure what's going on, but i guess you dont treat me as ur best friend like how u were 8mths ago. Maybe i am just thinking too much. I don't know if you still cherish me, but i seriously do cherish you as a very good friend of mine.
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Realised i stopped blogging for very long.
But im blogging now.

I just hope tmr would be a much better day for me.

Monday, November 23, 2009 11/23/2009 05:14:00 PM

♥what is wrong with me?

i think i am crazy.