Wednesday, September 7, 2011

tired of pleasing ppl all the time.
tired of doing things against my will to make ppl happy.
tired of listening to ppl's negative feelings towards me which makes me feel very gulity all the time.
tired of living my life with DO's and DONT's.
tired of being forced to face ppl i dont like.
tired of understanding ppl i dont like when i'm not ready yet.
tired of hearing things which i don't like.
tired of helping ppl resolve their problems when they dont appreciate at all.

tired tired tired.
no wonder these few days not enough slp.
eyes red red plus contact lense spoil liao. -.-

slp now.
nights.

KL TRIP <3.. in 2 days time. muahahahahaha

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

when we first met as a grp, we met for dinner at pizza hut. we snatch to take each other's photo and i rmb i was sitting in front of wgy. we head towards desert shop where i forgot what i have ordered. but i do rmb minmin ordered a shave ice desert. i guess i ordered sth like mango sago with pomelo. that was the first. i heard negative comments made by one of them tho, but i dont really want to take it to heart, well maybe i heard it wrongly :)

Monday, August 22, 2011

It's been so long since I've blogged.

Thursday, July 8, 2010

Sometimes, do you feel as tho there are a lot of things which you wanna say but you just can't say it in your blog? sometimes do you feel as tho there is a secret blog where nobody knows and you can pour out all your feelings there?

I just don't feel like myself. I cannot say and cannot do. Why do I have to live so hard?
I just wonder why.

Maybe I expect too much. I expect that at least people will always laugh with me when I make jokes, at least people would continue the topic that I have started, at least people will rmb the good things I have done. I just feel that the things I have done, are redundant whenever people don't appreciate it.

But all I know is, keeping quiet is the best solution to everything.
Oh well.
All I can do is to be optimistic bahhhhh.
lalalala~

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Hey people, it's been so long since i blogged.

I have been really busy these days, due too the rushing of schedule as it is nearing the end of internship. I think time really flies fast. When I recalled the first month when I was here, I was facing so much difficulties. However, the more I got used to the environment here, the more I can make the right decisions to make myself comfortable.

I have been encouraged by many of you, to not give up and always be positive. I have learnt to be stronger, but deep within me, I'm still me. No matter how much I said I will stay strong, but I know those things will still affect me a lot. The tension in me builds up day by day.

I ignored the less important things now, and focus my attention to things which are more important, to people who are more important to me. I have learnt to know that life is meaningful, and every problems I faced will make me a better person each time. I have learnt not to take things too hard and learn to let go.

Learning to let go is equals to letting go of yourself.
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I called my family and I realised i miss them so much.
I miss my mom's cooking so much.
When i go back sg, I am sure to gain weight.
I am looking forward to the leftover days.
I am always counting down.
I miss my friends alot too!!
And lastly, I miss my laogong~

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Thursday, May 20, 2010

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

today im feeling alil emo here and there.
i doubt the reason why for months,
i have been clinching to a hope that things might change for a better.
clinching to something which will only get more and more worst.

罗志祥 - 危险的念头

作词：姚若龙 作曲：张义欣

我怎麽一夜之间像被打垮了
狼狈 沉默 放空 泪光 胡渣 心痛
我不能跟朋友说 你做的事让他们觉得
你是坏的

你怎麽变得让我不认识你了
欺骗 自私 辩驳 嘴角 眼神 冷漠
我强忍爱流血了 但承受不了冤枉的痛
你的心变了还说 是我的错

心存报复是危险的念头
伤害你伤害自己 只会让我可悲透了
找新的爱伪装幸福 却假的更寂寞
封锁关系不去比较才能愈合
念念不忘是危险的念头
世界在向前翻滚 没有谁能倒退着走
扭曲自尊挽留才懂
一厢情愿能够 伤亡多惨重

你怎麽变得让我不认识你了
欺骗 自私 辩驳 嘴角 眼神 冷漠
我强忍爱流血了 但承受不了冤枉的痛
你的心变了还说 是我的错

心存报复是危险的念头
伤害你伤害自己 只会让我可悲透了
找新的爱伪装幸福 却假的更寂寞
封锁关系不去比较才能愈合
念念不忘是危险的念头
世界在向前翻滚 没有谁能倒退着走
扭曲自尊挽留才懂
一厢情愿能够 伤亡多惨重

pretty bad, listening to this song makes my eyes watery.
i once replayed this song over for more than 10 times while I'm at work,
and the more i listen, the more i feel sad.
but its a very nice song tho, you guys should listen to it.

P.S thanks ZJ for the wonderful BoA song. it makes me very calm yet full of energy.

Friday, May 7, 2010

有时候我曾想，为何平时不跟你混的朋友比平时跟你一起混的朋友还要跟关心你。有时我曾想，为何普通萍水相逢的朋友能比你所示为的好朋友还要对待你更更更好?

或许是因为每个人都有自己的社交圈子，都有自己的朋友和因为他们认为其他人比自己的朋友来的好？或许草在另一边永远是更绿更美更好的？为何不能是其他颜色，比如黑，红，白或蓝？为何必须是绿呢?

或许我应该也学其他人怎么享受从群组跳到其他群组。看着其他人怎么跳到你这跟你成了好朋友，然后利用你到他们觉得好无聊了，再跳到其他人那里？

哈哈哈，真是非常可笑当你知道其他人对待你比你自己认为是好朋友的人还要好。你一厢情愿的认为他们是你的知心好友，但他们却把你当成一堆大便。

你为我上了一个宝贵的课：

原来朋友是拿来利用的。原来我可以喜欢就背后捅你一刀，我喜欢就在你面前装好人，你对我没有利用价值时我就把你当成垃圾扔掉。你喜欢不喜欢也要接受这个现实。我不爽你，就喜欢做小动作来弄你不耐烦，怎样？你不喜欢也得接受。我有很多朋友，你有吗？我是一个喜欢把快乐建立在你的痛苦上，怎样？
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世上就是有这种人。我有一个朋友曾对我说，“朋友对我来说，是会进入你的人生，留下脚印，再从你的生活离开的。我相信朋友是来和走的。不是说没有一辈子的朋友，而是为你留下来的朋友很少见。不管如何，真心诚恳地对待每一个在你生活中留下脚印的朋友是最重要的。”

我对每个人都是礼尚往来的。相信耐心和诚恳的对待每个朋友是最重要的。一向来，我就是这样。
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那朋友对你来说是拿来捅几刀的，还是拿来珍惜的呢？