My Little Tiny Insignificant World

2011-09-07T01:21:00.002+08:00

tired of pleasing ppl all the time.
tired of doing things against my will to make ppl happy.
tired of listening to ppl's negative feelings towards me which makes me feel very gulity all the time.
tired of living my life with DO's and DONT's.
tired of being forced to face ppl i dont like.
tired of understanding ppl i dont like when i'm not ready yet.
tired of hearing things which i don't like.
tired of helping ppl resolve their problems when they dont appreciate at all.

tired tired tired.
no wonder these few days not enough slp.
eyes red red plus contact lense spoil liao. -.-

slp now.
nights.

KL TRIP <3.. in 2 days time. muahahahahaha

a lil memory that is slowly fading

2011-08-31T02:16:00.002+08:00

that was my first time playing an online mmorpg game and it was the first time i get to know great people too. i quited my org guild and joined the best guild in that game. i know lemon, who is a super nice guy. we slowly got to know each other and he pulled me in to skype and i slowly know the rest of the guild members. he was the first online friend i met for dinner with. its quite a special friendship to me though. we were very close back then, but something happen and i didnt handle it well. that's why we are not very close with each other. i feel quite sad tho, but i cant do anything to change it too. at the very least, we still talk and joke and hang out tgt :) be content.

when we first met as a grp, we met for dinner at pizza hut. we snatch to take each other's photo and i rmb i was sitting in front of wgy. we head towards desert shop where i forgot what i have ordered. but i do rmb minmin ordered a shave ice desert. i guess i ordered sth like mango sago with pomelo. that was the first. i heard negative comments made by one of them tho, but i dont really want to take it to heart, well maybe i heard it wrongly :)

second time we met, it was at plaza sg, we went to long john to meet new grp of ppl from the second online game we played. they were cool, esp cokla who is super lapsap and talkative. i thought he will look very man in real life as he sounded very manly online, but i was slightly wrong, slightly only :P i have forgotten what we did after meeting them. we headed towards the movie or the lan shop? i have zero memory of it. blank.

third time we met was when we met each other at the colo @ illuma, and this time round, we met up with my hao peng you ah bin gege. he was so jialat, act guai, shake hand with everyone who was there on that day. den somehow we clicked very easily and furthermore, he stays near me, so its quite cool having someone to chitchat and gossip while otw hm. :) i rmb that time was ard 3/4am where we have to take a cab hm alrdy. then bin and i was talking in cab, awkward but we somehow got the topic going and started to share about things like how old friends does.

after that time, everyone of us started to chitchat more on skype and it was so lively. i will come bk hm every single day, just to get so excited to on my lappy and login my skype immediately. i feel we have formed a family. they are the pillar of strength and accompany when i needed most. we got too close till, i put them as my priority, which i can say, they still do now just that i somehow have to rebalance my time to cater to everyone.

slowly, we meet more and more, and slowly we share more and more. some of them develop feelings for each other. some of them built up a dependency on one another. we slowly build up a barrier to keep new people from coming in because we feel comfortable with each other. there is a certain dark aura circulating around some of us if a new guy/girl comes in our grp. well of course, those new people will not be able to blend in because we have build up this barrier to keep our friendships going without interruptions. but as time goes by, this barrier, somehow a wall, is slowly tearing down, becoming brittle and fragil. the wall gets old and insightful, and new is always better, full of surprises and freshness.

slowly i started spending less time with them. maybe i have move on with life, getting to know more new people. each time i come hm after a long day, either working or hanging out with friends other than them, or not playing any online games with them anymore, or not skyping much too, i feel lost whenever i join their calls. unsure of what they joke/laugh abt, always the last person to know what they talk about, not knowing the new people they have added on skype, not used to ppl who we initially know but dont really skype with us yet skyping with us now, not having the warmth i felt in the past anymore. i don't feel the excitement and enthusiast-ism when i come home anymore.

i slowly drift myself away, because i didnt wanna start losing sth that means so much to me all at once. when sch starts, when projects comes, when sch work piles up, i dont even have time to come online. instead of losing everything at once, slowly losing bit by bit may seem less painful for me. but there is this someone who knows how i feel, who gets what i mean when i update my skype status. he tries all means to pull me back. he tells me, "i will tell u whatever things you do not get when u hear the skype call". nice though, thoughtful, but thats not how i want things to be like. i want to get involve, instead of being just a listener who says 'ohh haha' when i finally get the things i dont get.

maybe being too dependent and getting too involve is not good afterall.

when you have no gain, you have nth to lose.

when you have nth to lose, you wont feel any pain.

maybe i am just greedy and i just want to get more than what i can take.

i guess, i will find a way to cover that hole soon.

a new beginning

2011-08-22T02:47:00.003+08:00

It's been so long since I've blogged.

One Year.. it's too long for me to rmb every single thing that has happened thruout this 1 yr. I only rmb I made a couple of good friends this year and my old friends have moved on with their lives, some working, some studying, some still enjoying their holidays.

My current friends, I know from online games. Though they said, making friends from online is risky but I reckoned that. They are good people who I know our lives will nv cross paths with if I didn't play the online game. I am grateful to this game always, MFO, though it has been officially closed for more than a mth. We shared, we laughed, we quarreled but we eventually got closer to each other. Though new ppl are coming in, I just hope nth will change the fact that we have been good friends all along.

My sch is starting in late sept. I went to my sch camp just last week and it was super cool. My Orientation Group (OG) was awesome. We have great ppl in our grp and the guys were gentleman, the girls were easy going as well. I enjoyed the company. Through the camp, we got to know the guys from another OG because of a segment in the camp, the secret pal. :D

My pal was cool, he has a cool death ripper tattoo on his leg. It was so hard on him as he was so skinny and yet he has to piggyback me all the way from one pt to another. I feel so bad towards him. I bet i nearly break his bones. We have to prepare gifts for our SP, and he bought me masks from faceshop which i think is super thoughtful. A nice friend and hope we can stay contactable. :)

Noticed that, some things have changed after I came back from camp. Apart from knowing new friends, I got drifted from my current group of friends I feel. Maybe it was due to the fact that they have known new ppl from the game and I wasn't playing it yet. But well, hope I'm just thinking too much. Cherish every moment hehe.

As for my personal life, things gotten better.

I feel for both my sisters. Failed with their relationships.

I feel kinda affected and thinking whether single is better. Bfs MIA, or Bfs cheat on them. I mean, how can guys behave like such a loser. If they find my sisters not good enough, should straightforward and just end it. Well, I don't know anything about guys. But I love my sisters and I hope they know it too. :) Without them, you still have us k?

Ah, time for bed. I don't seem to get enough slp.

Nights.

Shall blog again when I have time.

ohh well

2010-07-08T20:33:00.004+08:00

Sometimes, do you feel as tho there are a lot of things which you wanna say but you just can't say it in your blog? sometimes do you feel as tho there is a secret blog where nobody knows and you can pour out all your feelings there?

I just don't feel like myself. I cannot say and cannot do. Why do I have to live so hard?
I just wonder why.

Maybe I expect too much. I expect that at least people will always laugh with me when I make jokes, at least people would continue the topic that I have started, at least people will rmb the good things I have done. I just feel that the things I have done, are redundant whenever people don't appreciate it.

But all I know is, keeping quiet is the best solution to everything.
Oh well.
All I can do is to be optimistic bahhhhh.
lalalala~

Reflection

2010-06-15T14:44:00.002+08:00

Hey people, it's been so long since i blogged.

I have been really busy these days, due too the rushing of schedule as it is nearing the end of internship. I think time really flies fast. When I recalled the first month when I was here, I was facing so much difficulties. However, the more I got used to the environment here, the more I can make the right decisions to make myself comfortable.

I have been encouraged by many of you, to not give up and always be positive. I have learnt to be stronger, but deep within me, I'm still me. No matter how much I said I will stay strong, but I know those things will still affect me a lot. The tension in me builds up day by day.

I ignored the less important things now, and focus my attention to things which are more important, to people who are more important to me. I have learnt to know that life is meaningful, and every problems I faced will make me a better person each time. I have learnt not to take things too hard and learn to let go.

Learning to let go is equals to letting go of yourself.
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I called my family and I realised i miss them so much.
I miss my mom's cooking so much.
When i go back sg, I am sure to gain weight.
I am looking forward to the leftover days.
I am always counting down.
I miss my friends alot too!!
And lastly, I miss my laogong~

So nice~

2010-05-25T12:06:00.004+08:00

ALWAYS BE YOURSELF, NO MATTER WHAT.

I am happy, very very happy with what i have now.
no matter how many things happen and trying to pull me down,
i will be brave and optimistic.

I ignore when others doubt me.
i ignore when others bitch me behind my back.
i ignore when others are saying things to pull me down.
i ignore when people look at me in a different way.
i ignore whoever who enjoys seeing the downfall of me.
i ignore every single thing except for things that makes my day.

i ignore u.
and TYVM,
because I've growth stronger than i was before.

and i laughed and sang song.

do good, and believe doing good will have a good karma.
be nice and polite to everyone, regardless of whether you are rich or poor, whether you are educated or uneducated.
be sensitive and always spare a thought for people mean sth to you.
most imptly,
stay healthy and happy.

cats or not?

2010-05-20T10:07:00.005+08:00

have you laugh today?
I came across an article today.
Remember to Laugh Today!

I guess I am just bored for not being able to joke and fool around.
I find it so hard not to crack a single joke a day.
oh man, I'm sucha joker.. rahs...
yeah, and that's why i resort to using sucha funny pic to make me laugh to myself.
I'm such an idiot now. =X

aww anywaes... this picture just makes my day man.
KITTENS are so cute to me now.

used to be afraid of those big cats, esp in the night.
but kittens just do it right.
they are my new favorite now.

I went down to get some groceries last night and while I was on my way back to my block, there was a kitten-like cat (apparently my eyes are not good at night), and when it saw me, it jumped into the bushes. Am i that scary? HAHAHAHAHA.

However, I'm still afraid of black cats. eek!
I heard black cats symbolizes bad luck.
hmm, I wondered if it's true?

I am so superstitious, oh man oh man!

oh man oh man
oh well oh well...

P.S: AND YZ, THIS LINK ISN'T MAKING ME LAUGH. YOU ARE SO ANNOYING! HAHAHA!

Oil and Water can never be friends

2010-05-18T08:54:00.004+08:00

isn't it interesting to know why oil and water doesn't mix well together?
very interesting seriously...

anyone who knows why please tell me?
my sciences aren't that good. (:

i only know oil is fire's best friend. xD

P.S eddie, i will update a full ver. soonnnnn. heh heh.
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ref:
http://novocreamseparators.com/blog/wp-content/uploads/2009/10/oil-and-water1.jpg

a song that add salt to my wounds

2010-05-12T13:34:00.002+08:00

today im feeling alil emo here and there.
i doubt the reason why for months,
i have been clinching to a hope that things might change for a better.
clinching to something which will only get more and more worst.

罗志祥 - 危险的念头

作词：姚若龙 作曲：张义欣

我怎麽一夜之间像被打垮了
狼狈 沉默 放空 泪光 胡渣 心痛
我不能跟朋友说 你做的事让他们觉得
你是坏的

你怎麽变得让我不认识你了
欺骗 自私 辩驳 嘴角 眼神 冷漠
我强忍爱流血了 但承受不了冤枉的痛
你的心变了还说 是我的错

心存报复是危险的念头
伤害你伤害自己 只会让我可悲透了
找新的爱伪装幸福 却假的更寂寞
封锁关系不去比较才能愈合
念念不忘是危险的念头
世界在向前翻滚 没有谁能倒退着走
扭曲自尊挽留才懂
一厢情愿能够 伤亡多惨重

你怎麽变得让我不认识你了
欺骗 自私 辩驳 嘴角 眼神 冷漠
我强忍爱流血了 但承受不了冤枉的痛
你的心变了还说 是我的错

心存报复是危险的念头
伤害你伤害自己 只会让我可悲透了
找新的爱伪装幸福 却假的更寂寞
封锁关系不去比较才能愈合
念念不忘是危险的念头
世界在向前翻滚 没有谁能倒退着走
扭曲自尊挽留才懂
一厢情愿能够 伤亡多惨重

pretty bad, listening to this song makes my eyes watery.
i once replayed this song over for more than 10 times while I'm at work,
and the more i listen, the more i feel sad.
but its a very nice song tho, you guys should listen to it.

P.S thanks ZJ for the wonderful BoA song. it makes me very calm yet full of energy.

两头蛇是永远不会得到知心好友的。

2010-05-07T09:22:00.004+08:00

有时候我曾想，为何平时不跟你混的朋友比平时跟你一起混的朋友还要跟关心你。有时我曾想，为何普通萍水相逢的朋友能比你所示为的好朋友还要对待你更更更好?

或许是因为每个人都有自己的社交圈子，都有自己的朋友和因为他们认为其他人比自己的朋友来的好？或许草在另一边永远是更绿更美更好的？为何不能是其他颜色，比如黑，红，白或蓝？为何必须是绿呢?

或许我应该也学其他人怎么享受从群组跳到其他群组。看着其他人怎么跳到你这跟你成了好朋友，然后利用你到他们觉得好无聊了，再跳到其他人那里？

哈哈哈，真是非常可笑当你知道其他人对待你比你自己认为是好朋友的人还要好。你一厢情愿的认为他们是你的知心好友，但他们却把你当成一堆大便。

你为我上了一个宝贵的课：

原来朋友是拿来利用的。原来我可以喜欢就背后捅你一刀，我喜欢就在你面前装好人，你对我没有利用价值时我就把你当成垃圾扔掉。你喜欢不喜欢也要接受这个现实。我不爽你，就喜欢做小动作来弄你不耐烦，怎样？你不喜欢也得接受。我有很多朋友，你有吗？我是一个喜欢把快乐建立在你的痛苦上，怎样？
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世上就是有这种人。我有一个朋友曾对我说，“朋友对我来说，是会进入你的人生，留下脚印，再从你的生活离开的。我相信朋友是来和走的。不是说没有一辈子的朋友，而是为你留下来的朋友很少见。不管如何，真心诚恳地对待每一个在你生活中留下脚印的朋友是最重要的。”

我对每个人都是礼尚往来的。相信耐心和诚恳的对待每个朋友是最重要的。一向来，我就是这样。
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那朋友对你来说是拿来捅几刀的，还是拿来珍惜的呢？

weeeeeeee~

2010-04-29T10:25:00.003+08:00

another 89 days to go...

currently the weather is getting much much better, at least better than the first day i stepped into the land of shanghai.. woots, so drama~~ HAHAHAHA.

china expo is coming, and there are so many concerns going on like.. how many holidays i have, where can i go, what can i do, blah blah blah and so on. im so bored owas going to the same place over and over again doing my shopping. spend way too much until my mom niam niam niam me alrdy!!

omg and still got the freaking bills... water bills, electric bills, phone bills, tv bills.... im going crazy man. everything must settle myself unlike those times in sg when everything is taken care of.

oh man, my company isn't taking anymore interns for next sem and i have to complete everything as much as i can. hohoho i wonder how long can i hold on... ZZZ

i missed out so much things, so much so much that i feel so disappointed.
hopefully, my grades will be good for this fyp to proof that everything is worth sacrificing for.
just hopefully....

GIVE ME AN A A A OR if can generous abit, GIVE ME AN AD AD AD. THANKS AH!

LALALA~

wooohooo

2010-04-12T22:03:00.004+08:00

My hair seems like the old time give away money show,
the money tree which people shake and shake and the money will drop.
It's dropping so fast now and i wonder it will grow back or not.
even if it grows back, i wonder it will grow that fast or not?
sobs, ltr my head become botak!!! ):

HAHAHA.
another 14 more weeks and i will come back singapore alrdy.
but its still very long tho 14 seems a small digit.

i miss my bed at home, my pillow, my bolster and my blanket.
please wait for me to come back for you guys! HAHAHA...

thanks my laogong, libing, lifen, huimin and yuanzhi for being there for me when i need people to talk to. you guys are the best people i've met in my life. xD

thanks for everything. (:

忍一时，风平浪静，退一步海阔天空

2010-04-08T09:19:00.002+08:00

sometimes, when things don't turn out the way you want it to be.
sometimes, when you just want a perfect ending but it turns out otherwise.
sometimes, when you do things with a good intention and your good intention becomes a bad intention to others.
sometimes, when you want that person to treat you the way you want it to be but it seems so impossible.

and sometimes, when you grudge and complain about how bad your life is, do you ever think that you are the one who creates all the bad things for yourself?
and when things go super wrong, who should you consult?
should you cry or should you do something to save yourself?

life is tiring, because we made it tiring for ourselves.
if things can be made simple, life wouldn't be so complicated for everyone.
but without others' help, life wouldn't ever be simple as you think it will be.

life has a mixture of good and bad. that is what makes life so interesting.
if life is all about the good things, then once the bad things come, you are in deep shit.

so what to do?
i prefer to do nothing.
because doing nothing is doing something.

life should be that simple to me.

A lil morning treats

2010-04-02T09:29:00.002+08:00

care for a breakfast with me?
wee~

KFC's soya milk and egg tarts are the most delicious.
guess how much i pay for them?
10 RMB.
S$2 for a cup of soya milk and one egg tart.
CHEAP RIGHT?

hehehee.

some kind of drama

2010-03-31T14:42:00.004+08:00

MOST HUMANS CANNOT BE TRUSTED.
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That is the moral of the story today.

No matter how much you tell me to trust you, i just couldn't believe your words anymore.
maybe I'm just too naive, acting too dumb, or plain dumb.
but no longer now.

Thanks for teaching me that treating others like rubbish is your way of gaining trust.
Thanks for teaching me the hard way. (:

I am still lucky to have sincere friends and laogong around to listen to all my rants. thanks for every single thing you guys have given me. i love you people. (:

Wonderland? I Hope!!!

2010-03-31T09:32:00.002+08:00

wow, I've watched this before i came to shanghai and guess what?
shanghai just released this movie like ytd?

wweeeeee~
im outta here....

approaching 3 weeks...

2010-03-25T09:24:00.002+08:00

"one should learn to be self-content and don't ask for too much."
"one should let his/her kindness become a weapon."

that is something I've learnt for the past 3 weeks.
being happy is important but remembering and recalling the past memories are important.

Honestly, I've learnt to be strong and independent again.
But no matter what, i must say i will never adapt to the environment in shanghai.

And sad to say, I've seen the human's most ugly side. Very disappointing but i am one human too.
So too bad for me.

ohh well,
I've learnt the hard way.
So it's good for me in some ways?

HAHA.

One week of reflection

2010-03-13T16:26:00.005+08:00

Coming to this Shanghai trip has made me think through a lot a lot. Sometimes i was wondering if coming here for 5 months is a good thing or not. This trip tests my patience, my desires, my emotions and my reactions towards many many things. I can say, it is not easy for me. The weather is very cold here. It is really not easy to live my life without anyone in this coldness. My heart couldn't take the pressure of loneliness. I cried every single day and night. I lost my appetite completely. I lost my confidence and I lost my mood towards every single thing. But, what can i do but to wait till the day I come home? I only can try to accept the fact that everything has changed in split seconds, from the moment i step onto the airplane.

What exactly has happened to me in just a week?
To my family, I am full of anticipation, hoping that they can come over during June, to celebrate my birthday. Seriously, I miss them a lot. I miss my mom's cooking, my dad's nagging, the sounds i always hear at home. I called my mom and i suddenly broke down. I suddenly missed my mom's voice so much. After hearing her voice, I want to hear it more and more. It is so addictive.

To my laogong, I was full of hopes and wishes too. Hoping that he can come over to give me a lil warmth because the missing feeling is way too strong. Sometimes i was asking myself, "is it really worth coming to this trip when we just celebrated our half a yr anniversary?" But i realised, i demanded too much from him. I am sorry laogong. Because I relied on him too much. Because i love him too much. Because i miss his presence way too much. The feeling was as though my world is breaking apart. How can anyone understand how i feel? But, i should at least feel appreciative that he is talking to me every single day and night just to make me calm down. my desperation is getting worst and worst each day. But no matter what, i wanna tell him that, I love you dear. I never regret knowing you and being with you. I hope you too.

This one week is really way too harsh for me. The weather is not helping, my mood is not getting any better. I lost my interest in every single thing. I am just desperately trying to find a way to make my broken heart heal. I am really lost.

I really feel so lost for the first time of my life.
There is no way i can survive for another 4 mths 2 weeks.
I need motivation.

Please help me. sobs.

Sry guys

2010-03-12T11:17:00.003+08:00

Hey people,

I've been trying to renovate my blog awhile.
So i am still in the process of changing it.

Will be done soon.

Till then, stay tuned.

hehehe

cya~

begone (:

2010-01-27T23:36:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I looked back to my past, thinking about all the super silly things that I have done. Some of which I regretted, whereas others brought me endless laughter.

Realised that throughout my poly years, i have made so much so much wonderful friends. Thanks to my decision to retake my o lvls, i have made so much wonderful friends and met the love of my life as well. Looks like i made the right choice afterall. (:

Time passes real quick, and people changes drastically to time. Some change for the better, while some change for the worst. Me? I dunno if i have changed. Or maybe i have changed afterall. (:

changed to becoming more and more....
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more and more...
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more..
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OLD!!!

http://www.aliciategg.com/images/fly_away_home.jpg

Bye JBP (:

2010-01-18T16:05:00.004+08:00

taken when my cousin came to JBP to play.
it was my first pic taken with my uniform on.
surprisingly, i hadn't take any pics since i started working in august or sept.

but time really flies.
sad to say, i am leaving JBP.
23rd of January is the last day of work. (:

i will miss those aunties over there for sure.
Annie, who owas bring her home-made food for me to taste (:
Afidah, who is strict to me but yet i can still feel her motherly aura ard. (:
Amy, who shares with me all her experiences and make my time better in JBP. (:

i will miss working with people who have been working with me thru this period.
Ferlin, the siao zha bor who got cheated 10 dollars. LOLS.
Amanda, who owas chit-chat with me and made my time flashes.
Louise, whom i owas stayed in Lory super long, just to talk to.
Fizah, who owas like the updates from me. (:
Hakim, the super blur sotong. (:
Riggs, the old and lor sor uncle. (:
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AND HUIMIN, the accomplice for killing my kitchen!! HAHAHA.
don't say i nv write ur name wor. HOHOHO.
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I believe we come from different walks of life.
However, i believe our friendship can last even after we all leave. (:

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what else did i miss?
Of course not forgetting those wonderful and cute little Lorries that i played and fed with.
I will definitely miss having them on my heads and shoulders, trying to pluck out my ear rings and dig out food from my heads.
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and of course,
those 52s who made me vomit so much so much blood.
and whom cheated my money during shows.

yup thats all. (:

lousy week

2010-01-14T09:50:00.002+08:00

it's been such a lousy week for me so far.
i am going to rant and rant as much as i can to frustrate all the incoming pressure.
no matter how much i try to flunk my resume and report, i still got thru.
and sad to say, im leaving for china for 5 months soon.
most likely leaving on 6th or 8th march 10.
bagus.

such a stressful week.
have so many assignments and submission.
and PM paper is before CNY, while MAD, ECAD, OOAD2 is after.
Srsly, such a special CNY this yr, overlapping with Val's day.
But not a special one for me. cause i've got no mood for cny at all.

i still have my OOAD's RDD to complete by next wed because of the stupid presentation.
i still have my Ecad that has yet to complete.
i still have the stupid pm tutorial that keeps coming and coming.
i still have the stupid I&E presentation slides to complete on friday with my team when my team are not so proactive afterall.
what else do i still have?

i've got so many things to do yet so little time.
i feel so terrible now.

just for you

2010-01-04T23:03:00.001+08:00

This song is super meaningful.
The lyric is damn nice too.

And i love it. so touching and made me feel so emotional.

i just dunno why

2010-01-04T22:52:00.002+08:00

sch just started today.
and morning is super duper f up.
i waited for bus 154 for like going an hour.
srsly, wth.
wanna eat snake oso should have limits one mahh.

both "off service" buses came and the bus drivers got kb by the passengers.
i hope this kind of nonsense dont happen again tmr.
bad bad management, srsly for SBS.
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sometimes, i just can't understand why.
when i am working during my sundays, and i realised most of my youth events are on sundays, i felt so gulity about not attending either one of them.

and because it is so,
i tried to adjust my work schedule to work every sat instead so that i can at least not be forgotten by my youth.
and look what has happened again.
my youth cohesion event is on this coming sat.
AND I CAN'T ATTEND AGAIN!

seriously wth.
it's not like i nv do anything to amend it, i did and it's still not enough.
i dunno how alrdy. hais.
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up till now, im still indecisive about internship of in-house.
i should just go bang my wall.

so sian. =.=

i need to recharge

2010-01-03T00:30:00.002+08:00

i've been quite in a laze lately.
so good to have ended a year of torture and unfortunate events.
i hope for the best this year. hopefully everything will be as smooth as the toufu. (:

my parents went to overseas to celebrate my grandpa's birthday.
I've nv keep track of how old my grandpa is, however i do know he is roughly 80/90 plus years old? quite old right? I hope he had a wonderful bday celebration and hope he will live a long long life!!!

I wasn't looking forward to year 2010 and celebrating my last day of year 2009.
Instead, i laze at home with love and watch the countdown tv show. I did my own "zi-HIGH' movement. xD

school is reopening soon on MONDAY!
sian, have to work hard for the next part of sem 4.
RAHS.

indulge with virtual villager 3 PC game.
omg, i think i will lose my sleep time to this game.

HAHAHA.

im not sure about myself

2009-12-27T23:35:00.003+08:00

Thanks to kenny, im crazily into abracadabra by the brown eyes girls. (:
Seems that im starting to pick up the dance steps due to the repetitive replay of the youtube video!

I am feeling so emo out of the sudden. Don't feel like working tmr because of the long working hours. Not that i can't take hardship, it's just that i only have 2 weeks holidays to rest before the study battle starts again. Can somebody help to cover my shift tmr? I don't think anyone's listening. So just forget it, jingfen!

I've been rather inactive in my youth lately, or has it been this case all the while? Due to my personal commitments and part-time job, i was unable to go for events or plan out my events nicely and in an orderly manner. I just need a breather sometimes, and the more i take the chance to breathe, the more i need to. That is why my work has owas been hanging halfway there. I guess if i continue this way, i will be out-casted by my clique in the youth soon? Maybe i just can't have both the worlds in my hands. Just sometimes, when i see the photos taken during the event, i will feel so envy.

I've becoming lazier and lazier each day, and only the love spurs me on and let me carry on with my life as per normal. Im so dead to rely on love so much. I need to change.

Thanks laogong for the super sweet present.
Thanks yz for the christmas present.

4 more days to end of year 2009...

discover sth new

2009-12-26T22:32:00.002+08:00

I've discover sth new about myself.
Some new changes which i didnt take notice of.

After being attached, I realised i am beginning to dislike going to crowded places ssuch as orchard roads. I would rather go over to Jurong Point to hang out or just simply stay at home with my darling and have some home-made dinner with him.

Am i getting on my age or what? I don't know.

Normally during x`mas eve, i would always go orchard and count down. But this time round, I went to bed as normal like it wasn't x`mas. HAHAA.

Well, maybe i changed and becoming more and more introvert? I don't know.

ANyways, thank you all for wishing me and calling me WHEN I WAS ABOUT TO SLP. (:

Thanks, i really appreciate it.

MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS PPL! ENJOY YOUR WARMEST DINNER GATHERING AND FESTIVE SEASON.

P.S Woohoo, it's 5 more days to the end of YEAR 2009.

drained totally.

2009-12-22T00:24:00.003+08:00

after being trapped like a sandwich having to make stupid decisions, i decide to just send in my resume first. my mom asked me if i send my resume and say if can go just go. but i know what my heart wants. it wants to stay it singapore. let's just see how later.

i've been feeling quite exhausted for past few days. selling bird food and still have to bear the bird's consistent "love bites" on my fingers, ears and neck. they were very naughty but adorable. i love them. srsly if i were to quit one day, i might just miss those birds alot?

working tmr and the day after, due to the lack of ppl again, THANKS to the dinosaur fair that will be going on for the next 2 months plus plus. i am so dead and they will be even dead if i quit now.

okay ah, im going to bed.

cya all.

confused state

2009-12-18T12:13:00.004+08:00

it's been a long week since i've blog.

today is the last paper i am having. i should be feeling happy.
however, im being binded by some major decisions in my life.

to china for internship, or stay in sg for in-house?
since i know i've gotten a place in bemobile project, i've decided to stay in sg.
but recently, the internship lecturer called me and inform me to send him a resume for the china internship.

then i heard if i don't intend to go, then it's better not to send in my resume.
because if i send in, and suay suay the company picks me, den it's hard for me to reject.

i sent a msg to the lecturer today, and then he asked me to call him to talk about this matter.
then he said i stand a better chance because my BIS got grade AD.
And furthermore, i am a MBS student though there is another girl who is in IT who stands a higher chance too.

hearing those, not very good news to me.
because of this, i've been thinking whether i should go ahead anot.
there are way too many things that are holding me back.

maybe i am just afraid, afraid that i will need to sacrifice something for this trip.
what should i do?

i srsly don't know.

Arrrrggghhhhhhhhhhhhh

2009-12-10T01:30:00.004+08:00

ARGH, DAMN IT.

I AM SO STRESSED.

WHY ARE THERE STILL THOSE STUPID DAMN IT PROJECTS GOING ON ON STUDY WEEK?!

I HATE NP. I SRSLY DO!!!

GO TO HELL, YOU DAMN CT.
I had enough!

the 301th moment

2009-12-05T23:57:00.003+08:00

it's really delicious. (:

thanks ah lian for this special treat.
P.S I WANT TO PAY YOU BACK!
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kinda stress up this sem.
maybe because i nv actually listen to class?
so im actually the ant in the hot pot, if i get the phrase correct.
yup, im so screwed. DANG!
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i am asking myself time and again,
what will happen to me if i dont study for exams?
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maybe i am just not good enough.
but since i have the time to worry about these stupid questions,
i should just put this time over to revision rather than putting it on unnecessary things.
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went to work today, and realised my SUP placed me to work on 12th and 13th when i told her i cannot!!! luckily she changed it for me. if not i sure BUANG!
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when things go too wrong at times,
we can't do anything but to wait,
wait for a correct time to make things right again.
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i should look on the brighter side of life.
things will get better after this CHIONGING period.
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P.S i want to spend my whole life with you, can i?

The 300th Time in my Life

2009-12-03T23:54:00.003+08:00

This is my 300th post. (:

These few days have been crappy for me. Not sure why, but just that many things dont go well for me. It just made me realised that i've been spending my attention on things which doesnt deserve my attention at all. I have wasted my time. SRSLY!

Getting too slack, until when there are things for me to do, i dont get them completed. So at some point of time, i realised i need a breather, but i dont have time to. I still have yet to kick my bad habit of ignoring things which i need to do and use my BRAIN and figure out what exactly are the things i need to complete. I guess if i still continue on in this way, my life will be gone in split seconds.

Just sometimes, i dont understand why. The people you dont wish to see, will keep appearing in front of you. Just out of 4 days, i've seen this person 3 times. I srsly have had enough. I am sick and tired of worrying time and again. I am not gonna pay my attention to this person anymore. Or maybe in the first place, my attention wasn't on him/her. It's on somebody's.

I am tired of worrying, worrying about things which i don't have to worry about. Im srsly finding trouble and unecessary worries for myself. I dont understand why.

but no matter how hard life is for me, i realised,
I am happier than I was before.

Seasons

2009-12-01T13:39:00.002+08:00

Christmas is coming, today is the start of a new month.
Time passes real quick. I wonder why.

Christmas reminds me about my CT that is coming up real soon.
MAD - 14th dec 09
ECAD - 15th dec 09
OOAD2 - 17th dec 09
PM - 18th dec 09.

so retarded, i just hate it when the paper is from 4-530pm.
so stressful.

i srsly wonder how am i gonna survive this time round.

BAGUS

2009-11-24T22:47:00.003+08:00

Jingfen has become a good girl now.

She slps early,
eats her meals "More" regularly,
does her homework,
watch her online shows,
and do her exercise regularly.

Previously, she
slps very late until she become one of the china pandas,
has irregular meals that make her gastric all the time,
doesnt do her homework only until last min,
doesnt have shows that attract her,
and doesnt do her exercise regularly that she gain so much weight.

These few days has been really packed and messed up for me.
Tho i seems calm and relax, seems like i have nothing to do.
But, in actual fact, i have many things to do, just that i didnt bother to go do it.

Common tests are coming up, and i am still confused about what is going on in every modules of mine. I am in deep shit. CHUI.
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Somehow, I am very sensitive about the ppl around me. and my sensitivity is getting worst. Tho im sensitive, i am still clear-headed of what is going on. So not to worry. It's not like my mind is getting over my heart. (:

There are some things that had changed over time which only now den I realised.
I am not sure what's going on, but i guess you dont treat me as ur best friend like how u were 8mths ago. Maybe i am just thinking too much. I don't know if you still cherish me, but i seriously do cherish you as a very good friend of mine.
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Realised i stopped blogging for very long.
But im blogging now.

I just hope tmr would be a much better day for me.

2009-11-23T17:14:00.001+08:00

what is wrong with me?

i think i am crazy.

great weekends

2009-11-16T00:25:00.003+08:00

[14th Nov 09, Saturday]

ended work ard 4, and i made dear wait for me for 1 hour outside. so sry abt that. (:
wanted to shock him from his back, but i get caught by him because he turned behind.
alamak, FAILED.

Then we went to Orchard Ion for a walk. Realised the place is full of christmas decos and before i knew it, i realised we are approaching the end of the year.

at first we thought of going to soup spoon, but in the end, we opted for fish & co. (:
had a great dinner and after which, we went for a walk in orchard.
didnt take much pictures because there were too many ppl hanging out there.
the street lights were all beautiful, but i just feel they hung it too early.
but its nice anyway. hohoho.

[15th Nov 09]

Again, after my work ends ard 4pm, dear waited outside my workplace for me.
this time round, i manage to surprise him from his back. hohoho.

we went to serangoon's CHOMP CHOMP for dinner. (:
first time i go serangoon and first time i go chomp x2.
the food there is really nice. we ordered way too much food alrdy.
the grass jelly is way too mega for both of us to finish, and it only cost 2 bucks.

HAHAHAA.
then we went over to the shophouses for a walk.
we entered the pet lovers' shop and saw one male hamster forcing himself on the female hamster.
lols, damn cute cause the female kept escaping. looks like they are going to have babies soon. ((:

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if everyday can be like this. how great would that be. ((:
hmm.

rojak

2009-11-12T00:05:00.003+08:00

i am listening to myself.
for the first time.

my heartbeat, my brain, my blood flow.

and everything seems to be tangled up.

I NEED A CONDITIONAL.

LOLS

2009-11-09T23:34:00.003+08:00

as promised, i will stay happy no matter what.

so whatever you say or do, it doesnt matter much to me.
(: (: (:

damn

2009-11-07T00:15:00.003+08:00

sometimes, life just sucks.

when things dont go right for you, you have to freaking make it right urself.

everything just sucks, even my laptop sucks too.
the stupid screen kept having double visions.
at first it's the black colours become red.
now it's getting worst, the blue starts appearing horizontally around my screen.
GREAT. I can't win ACER now. BEST joke of the day for me.
I srsly don't understand ACER.

I am sick and tired of going ACER every single time.
If i am going again, it will be the 3rd time.
Damn.

i am emotionally retarded right at this moment.
seriously. ):

It's because of you

2009-11-06T00:34:00.004+08:00

Just today,

You said, "Don't be afraid, I will always be right beside you. Let's just go."
As simple as that, it made me feel brave out of a sudden.
As simple as that, it made my heart paused for a moment and start beating in a normal pace again.

By saying that, you helped me overcome my nemesis.

Thank you for making me feel that i am still breathing.
Thanks for saying this sentence.

And..
I know

No matter how hard life is for me, you will always be there for me.
ILY.

come and go?

2009-11-05T14:39:00.002+08:00

Once I've asked my friend, "What are friends to you? Do you believe that friends stay throughout ur life or they just forgo you once u stop contacting them?"

Then he said, "I believe friends come and go."
At that point, i was dumbfounded by his answer. A lot of thoughts just came by. But... i still believe friends stay, esp those special ones.

But, who am i to judge? I srsly just wanna heck.

2nd Month

2009-11-02T13:26:00.006+08:00

Went to eat Crystal Jade with laogong just now.
Eat until too full that we can barely move. HAHAHA.

Went to harris bookstore and read some interesting books.
One of which, if i never rmb wrongly, it is "Women are Crazy, Men are Stupid."
It talks about what women dunno abt men and what men dunno abt women.
And talks abt the words or questions that men are afraid to hear from women.

Example:
- Am i fat?
- Am i prettier than that girl?
- Do you love me?
- How long will u mourn if i die?

and etc.. the rest i cant rmb. it's roughly all these.
quite interesting. and it talks abt the problems of women and men.
like how men say things which women likes to hear, and in a way, it's lying.

so if you want any entertainment, it is quite a funny book. (:
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To you and only you:
Happy 2nd Month Anniversary!
You brought sunlight to me all the time, though i am just a little small seed.
You make me grow and shine among all other flowers despite me being just a weed.
Thanks for all the wonderful memories and more to come.
I love you baby.

I see rainbow

2009-10-31T00:49:00.004+08:00

i see rainbow...

isn't it nice?

when things go so bad for you, think abt the happiest thing in ur memory.
and you will realised that, "eh maybe, my life is not so bad afterall. (:"

i believe the rainbow will appear after every thunderstorm.
right?

thanks to laogong and my friends, i've become much stronger and confident.
though at times i still feel super insecure.

but im telling myself, "since i am alrdy here, why not give it a try? you never try, you'll never know."

i believe i will not misplace or lose anything valuable in my life.
i just need to trust, that's all.

i love all my friends, i hope you guys love me the way i love you too. (:

AND not forgetting, my dearest laogong who places me on his first priority every single time. I love you.

i want you

2009-10-29T22:27:00.002+08:00

isn't it sad to just look at this black rose lying so dead over there?
isn't it sad to see black roses instead of red roses?
don't you feel lonely, sorrow, agony when u look at it?

some people say that black rose signifies death, evil, bad omen.
despite them being bad in a way, many still loves them.
some rose buds may appear black but it will slowly bloom into a red bud. In a way, i considered this as changes.

sad to say,
i can't have both the worlds in my hands.
it's either i pick A or pick B.
either way will still bring me agony and sadness.
and i can't choose not to make a choice.

why at this time, when i really wanna be serious with sth, and made a decision and is determine to stay on like this for the rest of my life, i have to make a choice between my commitments in SG or my future.

if i pick my future, i am really afraid i will lose sth valuable and dearly.
and definitely i will be feeling more agony than how i am now.

i seriously don't know how to go on my life like this.

can someone, please give me courage.
i am so frustrated now.

And maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Well maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two, is better than one

A Day to Halloween Night at NS

2009-10-26T22:34:00.008+08:00

[Friday - 23rd oct 09]

there were not much stuffs going on except for the huge crowds.
so i went there for free, except for the tram ticket, need to pay $3.

though there are lotsa ppl there, but the experience was still not bad.
the halloween night is opening until end of this week only.
so if you've got a chance, just go there and enjoy. HAHAHA.

i got shocked by the ghost wearing red. =.=

hahahaa.

[Saturday - 24th Oct 09]

went to work early in the morning as usual.
super tiring, weather is really killing me.

laogong waited for me outside JBP, sitting at one corner like an ah pek.
sweet enough to buy me a bottle of pink dolphin. ((: thanks.

then after that we went to NTUC to buy spaghetti ingredients and went back to my hse to cook spag. He is my "de li zhu shou", cooked the spag just nice.
BAGUS!

acc me until 12 or 1am and cabbed home. (:

boring

2009-10-21T15:18:00.003+08:00

Yawns, currently having OOAD2. Super dry, feel like slping.
hais, the stupid teacher don't want to put our 1 hr of ooad tmr to monday.
AHHH!

wawah taught me how to edit pics.
thanks wawah. ((:
at least it helped to kill my boredom somehow.

HAHA.
off to carry out more photoscaping.
buaisss...

New Skin

2009-10-20T21:12:00.007+08:00

I changed my blogskin again.
Spend the whole afternoon and night trying to change it.

I just needed the change to make myself feel better.
I didnt know camwhore can be so fun. ((:
It does make me feel much happier with them ard to camwhore with me.
I love them alot. ((:

Just hope i can smile with my heart always.

woohoo

2009-10-19T01:33:00.001+08:00

LALALA~

sch is starting later!!!
need to chiong bus like auntie liaossss.
SIAN-ED.

i hope i wont fall if not sure "zhao gen"
HAHAHAHA.

i miss my friends.
cheers!

get tgt with daph and kenny

2009-10-17T22:55:00.006+08:00

went out with my dear daph and kenny to catch up with one another before sch starts.
so happy to see daph after so long!!!

then we went to fortune centre to eat vegetarian,
so delicious!! hahaha.

we shall go tgt again next time hor? xD

after that we went bugis street and walk walk
and we went shopping spree afterwards.

hahaha, thanks daph and kenny for psycho-ing me to try the clothes.
HAHA!

and kenny, must i rmb our deal on monday? ps sia. hehehe.

thanks daph for the cup and bear. i love it alot! thanks sweet. ((:

currently in love with this song,

蕭敬騰 - 我不會愛

trust is really a big word.
after so long,
i still find it hard to.

duh

2009-10-16T02:02:00.001+08:00

being the best and not best of me has become part of my daily life.

believe it or not
i would rather be blur forever than be smart.

lols.

hols rocks

2009-10-11T22:35:00.003+08:00

i am determine.
very determine.
had never been so determine before.

going overseas for 3D2N once again.
dont waste ur sms contacting me because my new no doesnt have auto roaming.
HAHAHA.

everyone take care then.
cya all when sch reopens, hopefully.

made my day.

2009-10-10T01:25:00.007+08:00

aren't they cute? why do ppl feel so afraid of them?

this red lory seems to love me lots. it has been sitting on my shoulder for quite some time. hahahaha.

it's worth the pain of the scratches made by the lories.

our operation friend, mr hafiz.

a wonderful trip to the JBP, a place where i am working at now.

it's just like any other ordinary day.
but because of her, the ordinary day had become a very special day.
thanks for being my tour guide the whole day.
looks like our moods are not very good but we managed to make each other's day. ((:

bird feeding is super fun.
i love lory loft.
hopefully they can transfer me up to lory next time.
i want to get close with the lories. they are super adorable.

thanks for becoming my fashion agent that night. hohoho.
thanks for cheering me up and making me less worried too. xD
love you lots, my dearest kidnapper friend.

hahahaha, it just marks the beginning of our friendship. ((:
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woke up super early this morning to pass dearest libing some things. ((:
then i went to singpost and waited for it to open so that i can buy stamps to help my parents send letter out. ((:

then i went to love's hse and disturb him from his slp.
i just love to see his "havent wake up" face alot.

spend the rest of the day with love and then we went to pioneer mall to have our dinner at night. ((:
chitchatted at the playground again and we camwhored. ((:
painfully bid gdbye but i'll be seeing him again ltr!!!
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lols, thats what i've been doing for past few days.

I MISS MY DEAREST DAPHNE`!!
Woots and she is coming back le, finally.
hahhahahaa.
take good care while on ur way back. ((;
cya real real soon. xDD

yup cares everyone!!

appreciate

2009-10-08T00:54:00.004+08:00

hope you enjoy the cake that i made specially for you.

the rating from you guys really make me feel worthwhile afterall.

hopefully u guys didnt rush to the toilet and squat there for days.
LOLS!

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TO LIFEN!!!
i wish you happy always. ((:

Love,
Jingfen

waiting for that werewolf to
make me feel my love worthwhile.

a broken friendship

2009-10-05T23:16:00.004+08:00

the maybe destruction of a beautiful friendship among the 3 of us.

somehow i feel it's not my fault.
i am owas standing in the outsider's position and be a listening ear.
and i gave advices when necessary to someone whom regard me as his best friend.

you all know what is going on but no one wants to tell me.
so i guess you 2 nv consider me as part of you're at all?
so what can i say then?
i dont even have the chance to listen to the other side of the story.

i am not involved in anything in the first place.
then for no reason, i came into that stupid picture.
and i didnt even know the stupid reason why.
and i didnt wanna find out why and pretended as tho i knew nth about how i was being dragged into the whole picture and what is exactly going on because i didnt wanna 撕破脸 with anyone and because i want to stay neutral.

somehow i felt as though i am trapped in between the person who regards me as his best friend and the ppl whom i regard as my besties and wished i could look upon to when i need to talk.

if there is any misunderstanding going anywhere, cant you 2 just clarify with me directly than second guess yourselves? after 2 yrs of get together, is this what i deserve? for ignoring the whole situation?

are we still considered as a group?
or are you all have alrdy forgo me?

i dont even think we could ever have fun like before.
and i dont even think we could ever share our experiences with no caution like before.

i seriously dont freaking understand.
can somebody just tell me.

im so lost. ):

Happy and MEMORABLE indeed

2009-10-03T23:59:00.007+08:00

today is my dear dear bday.
i took him to escape theme park to have some fun. ((:
we went in the haunted house and i nv wanna go in again.
i closed my eyes most of the time and i am not sure why i go in when i intend to close my eyes. HAHAHA.

then we went to play the pirate ship.
WAHAHHAHA so exciting to sit on the highest point.
we went up so high that when we fly down, my weak heart couldnt tahan the pressure.
even dear's heart oso abit cmi le. hohoho.
that is our super warm up. ((:

then we went to play Go Kart.
dear dear's driving skill is SUPER DUPER "YI JI BANG", HO eh! hahahaha.
the whole ride was fantastically exciting. right dear? xD
it was super memorable, and surely i wont forget such an experience. xD

ltr on, we went to play the train and the flying thingy.
after which we left and i realised i lost my damn phone.
so heartbroken. nth to say. )):

we went for some K session together and it was a first time to go k with one person only! hahahhaahahaa. I love to hear you sing again next time. ((:

Sry for spoiling half of your day, laogong. we could have watched a movie and enjoy our K peaceful if this didnt happen. )):

I just hope you enjoy today and hope this is the first and happiest bday i've given you. ((:
Happy birthday to you again, my dearest. ((:

ps. you are the nicest tempered, most understanding laogong. i love you.

Happy Birthday To You ((:

2009-10-03T00:21:00.003+08:00

On 3rd of October 2009

Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to my wonderful hubby and besties,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU`!!!

Yeeting
Weijie Laogong
Zhangyuan

may all of you's wishes come true.
i hereby wish you guys good health and happy life always.
love you all. xD

ONE GREAT MONTH

2009-10-02T00:51:00.002+08:00

The things i love about you:

I LOVE YOU.
I love the way you look in the morning when i surprised you.
I love the way your beautiful smile make me feel my best.
I love the way your beautiful eyes electrified me.
I love the way you let me curl your hair.
I love the way you look into the mirror and touch your hair everytime.
I love the way you panic when you see me paying for our food quicker than you.
I love how clumsy you look when you nearly slip all the time.
I love how you apologise when I noticed you shake your legs.
I love how you send me home no matter how late it is.
I love how we spend our time chit-chatting about our lives in the playground.
I love how you look when we webcam together.
I love how you always laugh when you see my blur face.
I love how you sayang me all the time.
I love how you hold me close to you in huge crowds on buses or other places.
I love how you look at me all the time.
I love how you say "I love you, Laopo."
I love how you love me.
I love how I love every single thing about you.

And Lastly,
I know I love you.

Thanks for everything.
Happy 1 month anniversary, my dearest laogong.

((:

great day great fun

2009-09-30T23:01:00.010+08:00

hahaha, the feeling of being munched by lil fishes are super ticklish!
the 3 of us went to Qian Hu fishfarm to have our fish spa.

im the bravest among all. AND MY DEAD SKIN IS THE MOST AMONG US TOO!
haahhaa. we had lotsa fun.
we shld go try it again some day. HAHAHAHAHA.

went to MOF in Lot 1 and ordered cookies n' creams icecream.
OMG, that is the most tastiest dessert i've ever eaten.
so delicious. wahhahhaa.

and we order sesame sth sth dessert, can't rmb the name. hahahahaha.
the 3 of us are too indulge by the cookies and cream that we nearly forgot abt the sesame dessert.
everyone shld go try it. hohoho.

i love you guys. ((:

P.S thanks libing for today as well. ((:

2 days before ah kor's wedding. ((:

2009-09-27T22:14:00.007+08:00

hahahaha

i flew back to malaysia together with my daddy on thurs afternoon. before boarding, i was asking my daddy why he married my mummy. it was quite sweet but the experience led to other unhappy issues too. suddenly i realised my parents have gone thru alot and alot to become what they are today. really respect them alot. cheeros! hahaha.

hohoho, it's been 4 or 5 yrs since i went back to my ah ma's hse. alighted at penang airport and my mum and my aunt came to fetch us. ((: then my aunt bought us to shopping! weee~ at the shopping centre, i bought many clothes and a pair of shoes for wedding because I WAS PLANNING TO WEAR SLIPPERS TO MY KOR'S WEDDING SIA! hahahaha.

yup after shopping, i went back to my ah ma hse where i got to see my ah ma and ah gong finally. i miss them so much!!! hehehe. washed up and chit chatted with them and i went off to bed le. hehehe.

second day was quite fun. my cousin drove me and my daddy to a temple to "suan ming" (count fortune). the lady used tarot cards to help to count ppl's fortune. she said i am smart but my memory is very jialat. and so on... hahaha. then i went to salon afterwards to dye my hair darker tgt with my ah ma because my hair tips are so golden and my hair is full of colours. now i look more guai le. CHEI! hahaha. my ah ma curl her hair even more to prepare for my kor's wedding. hehehe.

at night, we went to my kor's hse to attend his final single night party. he wore super cute pyjamas and everyone took pics with him. hehehe. he is very handsome, isn't it? hohoho. i dropped my ring into the styrofoam box where they contain all the cold beverages and i didnt know until i pointed at my cousin's ring and asked him whther his ring is given by girls or not. then i saw my index finger empty and i panickly went to search for it. i even asked my another cousin to drive me back to my ah ma hse to search. i tot it went missing and in the end, my cousin found it in the styrofoam box when he was putting drinks inside. thank god. xDD

will update my kor's wedding day again! stay tune. hehehe.

bye singapore

2009-09-24T09:32:00.004+08:00

it's been so long since i went back to malaysia.
and now i am going back to malaysia to attend my cousin's wedding on 26th.
but going back early to enjoy first.
so it will be from 24th till 27th.

WOOTS, MY COUSIN IS FINALLY GETTING MARRIED. xDD

will only be back in the sunday afternoon.
im going outing with kenny, libing and sly when i come back.
hohoho. so excited.

in the meantime, im waiting for time to pass to go airport.
flight is at 3pm.

i will miss everyone for 4 days. ((:

take care ppl. xD
goodbye.

a not so ordinary day

2009-09-22T22:44:00.003+08:00

[Today]

went out with kidnapper after work today.
saw laogong eating with his friends in kuishinbo.
walked 2 times den i saw him carrying a black plate over to his seat from outside.
suddenly feel myself like stalker sia. ahahaha.
ate subway and had some H-T-H-T with her.
her past experiences were super hilarious.
HAHAHA.

ltr i called him and threatened him abt kidnapper.
sadly he was not threatened. HAHAHA.
dunwan to spoil his outing with his friends too.

so i went to cc to collect my cheque after aparting with sweet.
walked home with the accompany of my ipod. hohoho.

p.s thanks kidnapper for coming all the way down from tampines to eat dinner with me. HAHAHAHA.

one and only

2009-09-20T00:42:00.004+08:00

i forget myself whenever im with you.
can we stay like this forever? ((:

yes we can. ((:

~~|n@nGê£~~ says:
*hahaha of course i do
*i love you really really much mayb i put all my love that is suppose to be spread to different people on you only
*tats y i love you so much!!

speechless

2009-09-18T00:38:00.002+08:00

已经过了六个月了。

现在这样的你，我是应该负责的。
但，已经过了那么长的时间，我不明白为何你还是那么坚决。
看到现在的你，我感到很心虚，很对不起，很自责。

如果当初你拿得起，你现在就该放得下。
如果拿得起但是放不下，当初就不应该拿起来。

话虽如此，但有些事是很难说的。
但我在吃亏，我已经放下了。
为何你不能？
我很不明白。

morning madness

2009-09-15T11:46:00.003+08:00

omg la.
my hse is super noisy now.
my mum made the toddler cry because he dunwan to eat the porridge.

dunno what's wrong with her these days.
dont let me bring mahjong because my sis didnt know how to take care of her tiles the previous time and made her tiles go missing here and there.

took the baileys, then she nag again.
it's not going anywhere.

going chalet,
but my mood's not there.

i don't know why.
maybe things have changed.

cya.

a simple friend like you

2009-09-15T01:30:00.003+08:00

this amazing lady on our right hand side, is a new friend i knew thru JBP.
her name is kidnapper AKA jingfen's kidnapper.

attempted to kidnap my first time away at 09/09/09 at 09:09:09 too.
and she succeeded. ((:

she is the first friend i know in JBP apart from yt and ben.
she is my first youngest shifu i've encounter so far to teach me the stuffs in retail.
Blackout, ranining cats and dogs, chasing after the last bus back, eating with the birds, acc me just to see my bf, wait for one another for breaks/knock off, and we have done it all. xD

this lady makes my day at work more enjoyable,
make my every break time more fun because i can go disturb her and show off to her im having my breaks. too bad she is leaving. )):

and hey hey,
she is pretty enough for the pretty pretty boy to ask her the same questions as what he had asked me. xDD
i should become her kidnapper one day too, so that i can threaten her bf too.
should i? i think i should. muahahahahaha.

thanks to her warning abt the pretty pretty boy,
my bf is getting nicer and nicer to me. xD

tho we are in different sch, tho we live in the far corners of SG, tho we are saying gdbyes to one another in JBP, but that does not mean real goodbyes of our "fast fast naturally clicked" friendship.

just this simple friendship can easily make my day.
just purely purely a simple one.
and sometimes, a simple one will end up being the most firm one.
agree?

i hope i am correct. wahahahaha.

e most fabulous kiss

2009-09-12T23:46:00.002+08:00

[ytd]
went to BP to work as usual from 8.45am to 6.15pm.
i was super suay. waited for the stupid bus 242 is like waiting for money to drop from sky. and when i got on the bus, i actually experienced TRAFFIC JAM. alamak la. it made me missed my bus 251 which normally comes around 8.15am. and i only manage to board the bus around 8.35. halfway thru my slipper broke while i was on my way to sign in my attendance.
i was late for 5 mins somemore, and the rain just stopped pouring and the floor is super wet.
just as i thought, my slipper was sucked by the water puddle on the ground halfway while i speed up to sign in for work. so paiseh because got people around me.

ytd's closing was super efficient. i manage to change back my home clothes and get ready to go off to look for kidnapper who knocks off only at 6.45pm. hahaha. after she finished her closing, i realised i forgot to sign out from work. heng sia, i went back to sign off and shun bian wait for kidnapper and we left for home.

laogong finally date me out for dinner hor. and kidnapper wanted to see how he looks like in real person. so we played a mini hide and seek and attempted to shock him, but this time round, dunno why my laogong so clever, look around somemore. hahaha. in the end, we failed ah. no need say. hahaha.

had dinner with laogong and icecream session before he left for home. hohoho.

[today]
went to laogong hse in the late morning/early afternoon and we went to teban reservoir for a run. hahaha, i am super lousy. my heart is too weak. )):

in the evening,
we went double couple dates with ming and his gf. ((:
we went to westcoast to eat SAKAE SUSHI!
hohoho, we didnt know it's steamboat ah. ahaha.
then we ate for 2 hours and our stomach cannot take it alrdy. hohoho.

we went for a walk in west coast park and the place we were sitting was infested with ANTS!!! because of this, we left for home too. haha.

it was tiring but enjoyable today.
tmr will be the scariest day for me.
ahhhh. dead.

Self-content is very impt

2009-09-10T22:42:00.005+08:00

Ytd's work at BP was slightly tiring partly due to the long hours of standing and greeting customers here and there. Met up with eddie and wenxin initially for dinner at old town. ((:

My dear wenxin nu-er gave me a surprise by calling her daddy to come over and have dinner with us. She knows i miss her daddy alot. Seems to me her actions are quite similar to my laogong's meimei because she surprised me. xD But i do appreciate the surprise from nu-er wor. Just abit ps to trouble laogong all the way down to JP. Laogong wore white while i wore red and together we formed the SG flag. hohoho. WE LOVE SPORE. xDDD Then laogong and i sent our nu-er home and ltr on he sent me home and as usual, we sat on my hse nearby's playground to chit-chat awhile before making our way back. We saw this creepy uncle who seems to be homeless. So scary.

Today i woke up super early and super automatic unlike the usual me. Acc my mum to buy chairs for my aunts and then i went to laogong's hse. PS. Sorry to wake u up so early today. opps. I helped laogong to cut abit of his fringe and did some curl curl experiment to his hair. hohoho. We spend most of the day watching 2 movies. Realised today he wore red while i wore white. WE love SG again. weeee~~~ Had dinner and then he sent me home. ((:

I enjoyed a lot more today but unfortunately the good times always ends early. HAIS.
I love you dear. I hope to see you tmr. =p

Have work tmr again, alamak.

well, till then, cya. xD

only you matters

2009-09-08T13:43:00.003+08:00

Afternoon Earthlings ((:

Coraline is a super nice movie.
Watching it halfway now.

i hope my life wouldnt end up like how Coraline is in the movie.
hope so.

till then, cya.

Update:

Met up with Laogong and his buddy, Ming at the Fairprice in the evening.
Afterwards, we went bk to his hse and had our dinner.
Watch the "我会唱下去" de entertainment show. Super funny sia.

Then laogong sent me home and we went to my hse nearby de playground to chit chat about our childhood stuffs. hohoho.

what a night today. im so HARR-PPP-YYY!!!

Ps. I know your childhood secret le wor. MUAHAHAHAHAHA. better dont bully me. hehe.

goodnight earthlings, i have work tmr.
till then cya~~~

cheeky

2009-09-06T23:42:00.007+08:00

your cheeky and ugly pic never fails to bring smile on my face every single time.

For once I was determined to be alone for a long period of time.
Until you came along, and you changed my mind.
You make me smile, make me feel my best.
You make my world go round and round that it couldnt stop anymore.

I wont know what to do if you were to disappear one fine day.
I might need to stop my world from spinning i guess. ((:

Just today, you make me laugh out loud by doing the craziest stuffs i told you to do.

You can just reject me you know?
You know you can if you don't like to do those crazy stuffs to make me happy de.

Thanks for being so nice to me everytime.
Thanks for being my white rat today.
Thanks for being by my side.
Thanks for everything.
Thanks.

seriously, many many many thanks.

i love you.

thankyou my dearest lifen
for giving me the nicest present in this world.

JUST 5 MINUTES WILL DO

2009-09-04T22:59:00.002+08:00

Just a simple 5 minutes.
Please watch.

amore

2009-09-02T23:13:00.003+08:00

02/09/09, the special day.
i will rmb it by heart.
u will too right? xD

♥

2009-09-01T20:43:00.002+08:00

hahaha.
went to lifen's class chalet.
it was super fun partly because i know majority of the ppl there.

ps. Frankie Teng is a super nice teacher

I wasnt able to take much photos because i forgot to.
but i guess its not impt right?

cya.

the most impt thing is ylm.
that's all.

a msg

2009-08-29T00:58:00.004+08:00

鄧麗君 - 我只在乎你

如果没有遇见你
我将会在哪里
日子过得怎么样
人生是否要珍惜
也许认识某一人
过着平凡的日子
不知道会不会
也有爱情甜如蜜
任时光匆匆流去
我只在乎你
心甘情愿感染你的气息
人生几何能够得到知已
失去生命的力量也不可惜
所以我求求你
别让我离开你
除了你
我不能感到一丝丝情意

i've got the msg from your heart. ((:
it just made me smile. xD

stages of life

2009-08-25T23:07:00.003+08:00

it's been almost half a year,
and i've moved on...
have you?
.
.
.
i hope you do.

tmr is my last paper,
DB the killer...

will i get slashed to death by the knives in the paper tmr?
let's just hope for the best i guess.

im going panda on every exam
im going pimple-outbreak on every exam
im going serious gastric on every exam
im going heart-attack on every exam
im going half-dead on every exam
.
.
.
im going out of breath soon.
so so so drained out this time round.
when will there be a time where i can relax no need revise and just go in happily and come out happily? i guess it's totally confirm plus chop chop chicken chop impossible for someone so ordinary like me.

stop dreaming jingfen. stop whining. so noisy you know.

EXAMINATIONS IN PROCESS, KEEP YOUR VOLUME DOWN!!!

so stress now,
i shld get back to work.
cya~

Reverse Psychology

2009-08-25T10:27:00.002+08:00

lalala~
sighs~
like people always says,
"the early bird gets to eat all the worms"
manage to wake up this morning ard 730,
at least better than ytd's 8am.
and i tot i can reach sch still by 9.
ended up i was late again.
guess what.
not sure what happen to me,
when i alighted at the interchange, i saw a double decker bus and i tot it was bus 154.
without looking at the no, i rushed and board the bus.
then when i board the bus, i saw many people sitting on the first floor and mostly are working adults.
then i was alil concerned whther i took the correct bus or not.
because normally when i take bus 154, and if it happened to be a double decker, then most likely there will be less ppl on the first floor and more ppl on the 2nd floor.
to allow myself to double confirm whther i took the correct bus, i waited for it to enter the bus 154 route, but it didnt!!!
then i realised i took the bus 30 and not bus 154.
super dumb sia me.
hais, i guess im too stressed and not enough slp!

now, im currently in sch.
trying to study my WT before my paper starts again at 2pm.
but then again, i was distracted.
halfway thru i showed daph some interesting things that happened ytd night.

somehow i was infected by korkor's carefree attitude that i could easy put my mind at heart and ignore what people says about my life.

you know, if you still think that i am still the old jingfen who cares abt everything ppl say about her, then you seriously dont know me at all for the past 1 year plus.

hahaha, i shld get back to revision.
wish me luck.
((: xDD =DD =PP ^^

tsubasa

2009-08-23T13:05:00.005+08:00

NOTHING IS TO BE FEARED BUT FEAR.

-Sir Francis Bacon

it's raining outside again.
it somehow describes my emo mood now.
but i am lucky enough to have yz to talk to me in the night
and it somehow helps me alot.
thanks alot. ((:

currently i am in love with tsubasa chronicles.
i got so addicted to this anime.
die.

i have to get back to my revision somehow. =/
have to painfully say goodbye to tc for now. )):
maybe i shld tell myself that i can score nth from watching tc.
but i can score sth brilliant or not brilliant depending on my level of revision.

wj came over to acc me for revision.
and somehow he had no way to escape but to eat dinner with my family.
hahahaha.
it lightens my mood alot.

ps. but thanks for coming over. ((:

i love you.

today is a really terrible day for me. )):

2009-08-22T23:47:00.008+08:00

terrible day.
hohoho.
but, thanks to kenny for covering my fear and loneliness throughout the 3hours.

was alone at home eating mugs in late aftnn.
then when the night approaches,
i was feeling really scared.

the lights in my entire hse were off except for my room's.
staring out to take a look at my living room was super scary.
esp, during the start of "you know what festival."

keep hearing funny noises when i was going to bathe.
like the opening of the main door knot, and for once i tot my parents came home.
end up, there was nth.

that made me too afraid to go bathe liaos.
luckily kenny was there to teach me different methods of making me forget by fears.
like turn on my music and blast the whole house, or on tv and increase the volume.
constantly telling me it was nth one, no need to be afraid.

kenny said i was too stressed. maybe?
or maybe because the house is too quiet and dark and i was alone? maybe.
or maybe it was just that something else.

somehow he transferred some of his braveness to me ah.
and i managed to go bathe and chiong back to my room immediately and closed my door.

Ps. We are not the same tho we are both humans. I am definitely taller than you. AND obviously skinner than u. Dont deny the fact!! HAHAHA. (only thing that make u tink im fat is my stupid chubby face!) right? =.= EEEYER, say you are M____ and i am F__. thick-skinned monster okay!

felt nauseous now,
maybe because i skipped my dinner.
but i guess it shouldnt be that case.

listen to my itunes until i wanna slp, cause i kept replaying songs.
listen until giddy sia.
too much studying is no good for health, esp for someone like me.
sit on the chair the whole day until my backache, butt ache, headache, stomachache and all the aches in this world.
fold my blanket and placed under my butt, but it's super useless because it gets more painful.
so pathetic. =.=

yup, anyways,
best wishes to all who are taking the exams this coming week like i do.
happy mugging. hohoho.

Night scenary is the best

2009-08-22T00:53:00.003+08:00

what a beautiful night.
what a beautiful sight.

hope this night will happen again.

thanks for everything,
you know who you are.

Ps. to the most steady gf i've ever met and to the most wonderful bf i've ever met.
cheeros. ((:

i don't need to care so much,
as long i am happy right?

i can't do it without you

2009-08-20T01:14:00.002+08:00

need to find my motivation back.
i can't carry on like this.
)):

jiayou jing fen!
you sure can do it you know?
you can de!!!

since when am i so vulnerable.
i am owas independent and strong.
it must be because of you.

i need.
i just need to be.
just a lil more independent and strong.
just to get me thru this.

oh my.
what has happen to me?

i realised.
i realised imy.

die.

2009-08-18T23:30:00.001+08:00

Where are you?~

BATAM~~

2009-08-15T00:16:00.003+08:00

RAINBOW RAINBOW...
Anyone, just anyone who can bring all these to me?
i will marry that person.
xDD

went to watch GI.Joe with weijie ytd.
and then we went to eat ajisen.

GI.Joe is a super nice action pact movie.
you guys should watch it. xDD
i will be off to BATAM for 2D1N.

dont miss me too much.
catch ya when im back.

when im back, i will need to MUG. wish me luck by then. hehe.

P.S and i will miss you lots. ((:

you stole my heart with your kiss.

back to normal.

2009-08-11T01:08:00.006+08:00

woots finally the blog is working fine.
my fb is back to normal too.

the day before was national day.
kenny, libing, sly, dono and i went out tgt to watch the movie, UP.
it was a super sweet sweet sweet super duper sweet movie.
so everyone please, highly recommended, please go watch it.

but if you dont like the kind of touching and romantic movies, it's better not to watch it.
other than the touching part, there are some actions too.

everything is being pieced up very nicely tgt.
i love it alot and dont mind watching a 2nd time or even 3rd. ((:

so ytd,
i woke up ard 1 plus and met up with weijie after that ard 4 plus.
we went to vivo city to walk walk and took bus back home.

i realised i spend more time in a bookstore than a supermarket.
hahahaa. now i know the bookstore can kill more time alrdy.
good good. hehe.

thanks for making my day, lg. xD

there is sch today. not sure if i can wake up.
hopefully i can, and i have to go slp now.
till then, cya. hohoho.

when you learn to love,
you will learn to lose.
when there is feelings,
there will be fear.

Sorry

2009-08-10T13:24:00.001+08:00

I AM SO SORRY.

)):

2009-08-09T14:15:00.001+08:00

Today is Singapore's NATIONAL DAY
I hereby wish everyone a
HAPPY NATIONAL DAY! ((:

i found out sth strange about me.
i realised when i slp less, i will be more energetic.
when i slp more, i will be more tired.

like how i am today.
slept at 3am this morning and woke up around 1230pm.
9hrs of slp and i feel super tired.
i guess normally i only slp like 6 hours per day?

so when i feel tired, i will be more lazier to think much about stuffs.
and ppl who dunno me well will not know i tend to feel easily annoyed when they ask me stupid questions, depending on who these ppl are.

and because i feel tired today, my mood is still good, but just that i get annoyed easily.
and this morning, 2 incidents alrdy make me feel moody liaos.

i seriously hope nth like this 2 will happen again ltr on.
hais.

and somehow i realised sth abt myself again.
i don't usually like to think when i speak in MSN.
cause i feel that conservations which doesnt require u to think are the best conservation.
why do i say so?
chatting in msn is just like catching up with old friends, sharing your laughter and smiles with ur current friends, knowng more abt your new friends.
everything should be pure and natural and most importantly, enjoyable.
if once you realised that talking to someone requires you to think hard before you answer, then the whole conver is really meaningless.
the reply should just come naturally.
because once you think, the basic understanding is alrdy gone.
cause you will doubt. and doubting is not good.

everyone has their own way of doing things, saying things and treating things.
trying to preach too much is way no good for the person listening to u, if you can't do the same as what you have preach. so it's just better off this way.

alas, im crapping nonsense again.
better stop now if not ltr i say more nonsense again.

meeting libing, kennny, sly, and donovan uncle ltr for movies.
watching UP together.
cheeros to white and red. hehee. xDD

enjoy ur fireworks ltr, everyone. ((:

有趣的故事

2009-08-09T00:02:00.003+08:00

《故事一》
从前有一家三口，老爸叫做“烤焦肉干”，老妈叫做“咸菜干”，儿子叫做“烤焦大番苏”。老妈AKA咸菜干非常的忙，忙着搞外遇，没闲空去管其他的无聊事。老爸AKA烤焦肉干超级不喜欢贪吃鬼，但儿子AKA烤焦大番苏偏偏喜欢上了贪吃鬼。

没想到，有一个超级优秀的“刚烤到差不多的白斬雞”也喜欢贪吃鬼。在那时，贪吃鬼和白斩鸡的感情已经是蛮好了。烤焦大番苏也一直一直地怀有疑问。有事没事就会反反他的欠扁问答题来问问白斩鸡。但是也在这时，贪吃鬼发现咸菜干好象，也许，似乎，看来，真的，。。。也喜欢白斩鸡。

所以，最后，当两人在谈起这件事时，白斩鸡说了一句好好笑的话，笑道心脏抽痉。哈哈哈。
贪吃鬼：“你可以包二奶的！”
白斩鸡：“我不要！”
贪吃鬼：“你真的真的可以包二奶的！我不介意。”
白斩鸡：“我不要啦！”
白斩鸡：“就算是要包, 我也不会去包她（咸菜干）为二奶的！”

真是的！！！哈哈哈！！！

《故事二》
有一天，宅男送宅女回家。正在回家的路上，把所有的笑话都说完了。由于有太多熟人在附近，当两人快要到女方的家时，真要过马路时，宅男突然说：“要不然我们当作不认识对方，就从现在开始。”

两人渺渺对方一两眼，偷偷地暗笑，就过了那条马路。途中，宅女笑笑地说：“好假哦！真的真的好假哦！！！” 宅男这时装出一幅真的不认识宅女的表情而便说：“小姐，你怎么自己自言自语呢？！”

真实的啦！！宅男好厉害装傻。哈哈哈。

Beautiful Time Last For a Sec Only

2009-08-07T10:34:00.003+08:00

12:34:56 07/08/09

is it for real?

check it out yourself today.
don't miss it. xD

((:

Beauty last for a sec in a lifetime only.

2009-08-06T10:28:00.002+08:00

Being taken for granted can be a compliment.
It means that you've become a comfortable, trusted person in another person's life.

-Joyce Brothers

POO

2009-08-05T00:53:00.004+08:00

a new day, and im falling asleep.
fever subside, cough and flu still here.
kept having those super long and irritating sneezes. RAHSS.

was surprised to see lifen in sch when i go look for weijie.
then we went to IMM to eat tgt with meijing. ((:

alamakk, cough ah, everything oso cannot eat.
korkor dont let me eat. )):

then we separate our ways after dinner.
korkor sent me to loving hearts centre where i need to attend a mentoring gathering.
AND I WAS SUPER LATE until metty msg me and asked if i was coming.
LOLS, so ps!!!

then he met up with lifen after that.
and the 2 kind-hearted souls waited outside the centre for ard 2 hrs for me. ((:
thanks for the wait ah. xD
Ribena as reward! korkor's fav. xDDD

after that, they went to SLY hse without wanting me know.
cause they are afraid i would go over to find them
cause sly stay one street across only.

hahahhaa ya tmr is another sian day.
so cya.

能不能就對著我說愛我
能不能就陪著我天長地久
不要對我若即若離讓我傷心淚流
能不能就對著我說愛我
能不能就陪著我一直到最後
從今以後剩下的路要你陪我走

ALAS, the pain is killing me. )):

2009-08-04T00:01:00.006+08:00

sickening, why choose me to be sick at such crucial moments?
but nvm, falling sick is part and parcel of life.
fever just subsided and nw it is back again.
tgt with the usual flu, headache and cough.
to add on to my agony, i've kena body ache all over due to prolonged or irregular exercises i've done.
so ke lian.

popped 2 panadols down my throat and now the only thing i need is ample rest and water.
hopefully by 7am i can recover.
now im wrapping myself with layers of clothes.
excluding the "you know what", i have 2 layers of pants (long and short) and 2 layers of top (tshirt and jacket).
sounds like dumpling, doesnt it? @_@

but serve me right ah,
eat too much unhealthy food lately.
hais, can't blame anyone.

hopefully i can go lesson tmr. revision ahh, cannot miss!!
so kia su sia. lolsss. just joking.

hmm, thanks t.weijie for eating and sending me home today.
it was a long walk from JP i must say. ((:
cheeros to our chrysanthemun tea!!
cheeros to the bitterness. LOLS.
thanks. xD

P.s and dont forget you have to drink coffee with my sister soon. WAHAHAHHAA.

though the hug was short,
but the warmth is still here with me,
i can still feel it,
so thanks. ((:
IMY.

Sick is not a nice feeling. )):

2009-08-03T12:26:00.005+08:00

went to sakae on friday with lifen, weijie, adeline and donovan.
i super shua gu, dunno how to order. wahahahaha.
after that we went to adeline house and donovan went home. ((:

okay, now i know my service provider is the problem of my recent incapability of the display of the blog post and its toolbox.

i am at school now.
feeling terribly sick today.
i am down with slight fever, headache, cough and alil morning flu.
was actually thinking whther i shld come sch today.
in the end, i came.
hopefully it's not H1N1.

i was thinking why i was sick.
so i recalled what i ate for the past few weeks, esp last week.

1. Durian
2. Macdonalds
3. 2 sets of fish & chips
4. 1 set of chicken chop
5. pocky and hello panda

maybe they are the ones causing me to be over heaty. lols.
and partly maybe i stand under hot sun for too long.

and i realised my jie mei, daph is sick too. )):
and i also realised aloy, libing, serwei didnt come for class as they are sick too.
and liyi oso having cough.
lol, our class down with plague ahh
wahhahaha.
p.s. let's all get well soon alrights?

and shafiq is laughing at the way i coughed.
he said i covered my mouth with my hands like nv cover like that.
lolsss.

and i am so damn cock.
put tissue on both my nose to stop the running nose prob.
at the same time i put thermometer on my mouth.
DEN I CANNOT BREATHE.
lols, how dumb can i get?

yup, hopefully i will get better tmr.

till then, cya. ((:

I have the answers already

2009-08-02T00:03:00.002+08:00

not sure what happen to blogger lately.
damn.
i cant find any stupid align buttons or colour buttons to adjust my post.
is it just blogger or our service provider?

yup, ytd when to sakae sushi to eat with lifen, weijie, adeline and donovan.
i was quite disappointed because they do not have the hotake kurage (if i got it correctly) under the buffet.
i still prefer suki sushi tho. ((:
then i went to adeline hse for awhile before i went home with weijie.

when i came home, i was so demoralised.
family problems aren't easy to resolve.
and why should i bother when it's none of my business?
all because i care for them.
as simple as that.

problems that doesnt concern me from now on,
i shan't bother too much. ((:

today as usual, i went for my mentoring session.
it made my day to see the 17 students who came laughed happily thru-out the game.
i feel that i have done sth meaningful in my life after all.

after that i went to JP to meet weijie for lunch.
then, we went to west coast. ((:
it is a super duper nice place to chill and enjoy the breeze.
it somehow made me forget all my worries.

then we went to westcoast marketplace to have our dinner and went to west coast plaza for walk to digest our food.
then we went to execute some secret plans. XDD

I am so sry to make you execute that plan, weijie. ):
thanks for doing so much. XDD

god dammit.

2009-07-28T09:51:00.003+08:00

find it familiar?
it's a character in the infected family in L4D.
so fun being one of it in the game.
but not fun being a real life one.

well, ytd was a bad day for me thanks to some ppl.
like the boomer, it splashes toxic on me and poisoned me.
then i recovered after some time, fortunately.

maybe i should just prepare some shield or some antidote next time round.
see no evil and hear no evil.

yup, and ytd i went to E-Hub at pasir ris tgt with daph, kenny, lifen and t.weijie.
we went there to eat vegetarian JAP!
so delicious, esp the agedashi tofu. yums yums.

after that i went bk home with t.weijie.
i tot the train ride would be quite long.
fortunately it only took 1 hr to reach boonlay.
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and now i know why alrdy.. ((:

i'll make every sec count

2009-07-26T02:26:00.000+08:00

lols.
went out with weijie for lunch after my mentoring session at amk hub ytd.
after that we went to our usual hangout place, the NTUC.
waited for lifen to come and we acc her to go eat while we have our desserts.
hohoho.
we took bus to bugis to visit adeline at her shop.

got bullied by the 3 of them. )): so sad

after that weijie sent me home. ((:
we took bus 243 to gekpoh where i dabao food for our daddy and we walked back from there.
so now weijie knows how near gekpoh and my hse is. )):

slept for 1 hr and actually wanted to go meet lifen.
in the end she called me and said she is not meeting pln le.
so ended up im still at home now.

there is tennis practice today
and after tennis im going out to popeyes with ahmad for dinner. ((:

korkor dont sad okay? xDD
cya~

Mr and Mrs Bean

2009-07-24T16:11:00.004+08:00

Mr Bean and Mrs Bean
so sweet~ xDD

right now, i am at eventure tgt with lifen and weijie.
lifen looks quite relaxed, while weijie looks pretty stressed.
can see the difference?
the last min panic one VS the last min lax one.

so funny sia. hohoho.

wanted to update my blog but it seems to me that blogger doesnt like me too much.
it disallows my upload box and made me cannot type anything cause there is no box to.

but now it's okay alrdy.
I've completed my FIRST episode of Harper's island, miraculously.
see properly, it's first episode hor. not first season hor.
wahahhahaa, what an achievement for me. xd

ytd night shared with daph some personal stuffs and realised with have sth in common.
good for us then.
friendship dadah dadah!!! levelled up. xDD

so nice to have you as my friend. ((:
my dearest hao jie mei ever.

going to watch harry potters with lifen and weijie ltr.
and tmr morning i have mentoring again in the morning.
tmr aftnn im going for lunch with my family. xDD
sunday aftnn i going to tennis
and after tennis, ahmad and i are going for dinner date.
chei.

Lupsup lifen and weijie stalk me home today.
We actually wanted to go watch harry potter at JP
but ended up we just went to eat pizza hut and..
they execute their plan A to E.

Hopefully they wont give me a surprise ltr.
i can't take the shock.

hahahaa. yeap,
thanks all for today.
buaisss.

i'll make every second counts.

lol.

2009-07-19T23:31:00.002+08:00

yeap,
this weekend is kinda busy busy for me.

Sat morning, I had my first session of my mentoring programme with 20 soccer team players from Hongkah sec. Tho it was the first session and we were all pretty inexperienced, i thought we put it off pretty nicely and managed to smog thru it. ((:
There were 2 groups of mentoring going on. I was with the hongkahs tgt with 3 other friends of mine. Hongkah sec wanted the prog to go on at the centre itself and not the sch, just a change of environment or so.
And the other team had mentoring with shu qun primary. And out of 4 mentors, 2 went missing, and in the end, 2 of the mentors went only. Heard they were pretty hard to handle because they were pretty hyper.
So, i was lucky to be with the secondary school students? lols.
I will be seeing them for around 10 to 20 sessions depending, which means 2 hours for every sat morning. xDD
So let's see how it goes then. ((:

Yep, after that i went to ECP for Project Tap gathering.
Was quite disappointed with the attendance itself cause initially i thought many would go.
But it's really alright because we had lots fun too. ((:

After that, i went to meet up with LG for dinner.
So awkward sia. Esp during dinner time and on the bus hor!

Yep that's for Sat.
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For today, i went for breakfast with my daughter and her 2 other friends.
She tricked me to go and didnt tell me about the 2 other friends.
But it's alright la. Mummy is very understanding one. hohoho.

After we ate finish,
I went to dabao for LG.

After that, me and wenxin and her son-in-law went to JP to walk walk.
We saw her soninlaw's real parents and he bid goodbye with us.
I went to shop further with my daughter and after awhile, we went back home.

When i came home, i saw my parents repainting the whole hse with white colour to cover the original colour as they intend to colour with another colour.
woohoo. so happy.
I enjoy the feeling of painting the house tgt.
Though my arms were tired, but it was worthwhile. ((:

So now, im chionging my db pract. I practically forgot abt this practical 6 ah.
Heng this morning i suddenly recall, if not i can go eat SAI alrdy.
Hopefully i can finish it by 1am.

私は逃す , you know?

Ps. Lifen and weijie jiayou on ur FYP wor. You guys can do it. ((:

LIFE

2009-07-17T23:43:00.003+08:00

Life is very unfair at times.
That is all i can say.

Tho life is unfair, life has given me happiness.
I must feel content alrdy.

somehow when you are not with me,
i miss you so much
and i just want you to be here with me.

Sth you should know abt gemini if you wanna know about me. ((:

2009-07-16T10:21:00.002+08:00

[双子座]

双子孤傲是因为他们自信，双子善变是因为世界在改变，双子没有耐性是因为他们发现了不值得，双子冷漠是因为他们害怕被伤害，双子花心是因为他们没有找到真爱，双子不在乎是因为你没有看到他们的敏感。

(笑)

到过双子的眼泪是因为他从来不会在被人面前哭，当你看到双子的眼泪的时候，那么说明你是真的把他们的真心夺走了，因为双子真的很需要一份值得的依靠，他会每时每刻的在乎你的一切，他们很敏感的，会跟着你的快乐而快乐，跟着你的忧愁而忧愁，跟着你的改变而改变，但在你面前他们从来都是快乐的。

(爱) 　　　　

一提到双子的爱，一般人肯定都会说：双子座的人最花心。可是是真的是这样吗？双子和异性的关系好只是因为他们非同一般的亲和力，而双子的真心只有一个，当他找到的时候，他就会付出自己的一切让对方得到幸福，他要的不是他自己能和对方在一起，他要的是对方的幸福，和双子在一起会感到很随和，因为他会包容你的一切，你的一切优点和缺点，和双子在一起绝对不会觉得被锁住，你只要做自己就好，因为双子喜欢的就是真实的你，做作的人根本不会得到双子的心。

(坚强)

有人说双子很坚强，什么都不在乎，是阿，表面的双子确实很坚强，但是内心他们比任何人都脆弱，也许这也是风向 > 星座的人的一个特性，决不会让别人看到自己脆弱的一面，因为他们都是一个有一双别人看不见翅膀的天使，天生就会给别人带来快乐，双子们的眼泪是透明的，别人看不见，可是自己却能看得很清楚这样的透明的泪给自己开来双倍的痛。

(人际)

双子们的人缘很好，因为他们懂得你什么时候需要什么样的帮助，而且双子们会根据不同的人有不同的交往方式，双子很容易相信别人，所以经常会被欺骗，可是在欺骗后他们仍然会轻轻的笑笑然后说：没关系的，他骗我肯定会有原因。双子从来不会知道后悔是什么，因为他们时时刻刻都在为别人想，总会设身处地，可是这样别人根本就不知道，就是因为他帮助别人太多了，所以在他需要帮助的时候却总是孤立无援，然后继续的笑着，笑着找到一个角落，留下那颗透明的泪。

(朋友)

当双子的朋友真的很幸福哦！因为当你遇到什么困难时，他会比你更着急，甚至会失去自己宝贵的东西也会帮助你，他会带给你快乐帮你分担忧愁，可是你却看不到他的孤独和无助，当双子看到你不高兴的时候，无论这时他有多么的郁闷，他也会立刻露出最真实的笑容来帮助你。　　　　

(执着)

说双子善变，那只是片面之词，对于双子真正喜欢的东西，它是会执着的让人害怕的，就是因为内心太像小孩子太单纯，所以对于他们真正喜欢的东西，他们是根本就不知道放弃是什么的，除非是他们自己发现这个东西不值得，否则他们是绝对不会放弃的，只要是他们肯定的，他们就会有超出别人很多的坚持和执著。　　　　

(自尊)

双子的自尊很重要，对于他们最重要的恐怕就是这个了，他们懂得原谅，无数次的去试着原谅，就算别人让自己千疮百孔，他们也会无条件的有自己的宽容，有自己的原则和原谅，就是因为他们的自尊，他们的自尊心让他们相信这个世界永远都是最美的，因为他们的自尊不允许自己放弃这个世界。　　

(分享)

在双子的世界里没有分享，只有是你的或者是我的，他们不会把一样东西去和别人分享，因为他们认为这样对那样东西是不公平的，因为他在乎每一个人每一样东西的感觉，只要他认为这件东西是自己可以割舍的，他绝对会无条件的退出，去成全别人，对于欺骗过他们的恋人，他会选择原谅，但绝对不会再和他们在一起，因为他懂得这样不值得。

双子座的人真的很可爱，真的很需要人的保护和安慰，他们不会放弃世界，却会放弃自己，去成全别人，他们懂得原谅和理解，无论这一秒他有多讨厌一个人，下一秒看到那个人脆弱的一面，他还是会去无条件地帮助他，真的很傻吧？但是傻的好可爱，好让人心疼，痛过以后，他们依然会笑着面对以后未知的路，继续原谅，继续理解，继续快乐，继续的傻着，改变双子真的很难吧？因为他们的心都是金刚石作的，但不是说他们无情，他们的执着只是针对自己的，那么孤傲的一个人，也只是针对自己，因为他们不知道怎么表达自己的内心，所以他们选择了沉默。　　

quite true tho. should read.

2009-07-15T22:31:00.001+08:00

lols lols, i love my baobei nuer. ((:

sadded. lifen bullly me, say im thick-skinned.
hais hais.

2009-07-15T12:20:00.002+08:00

wanna take the lift and found out sth interesting abt the buttons in that lift.
daph and i couldnt take this lift as we are not able to close the door.
so in the end, we took the other lift up.
while we were going upwards, i told daph i wanna go take a pic of the buttons.
so i went down again and take a pic of these buttons.

so funny.

Ps. im just afraid, you know?

quiz of the day

2009-07-13T20:25:00.003+08:00

Got this while browsing thru one of my friend's blog. ((:
quite interesting tho. ((:

This quiz is getting know about urself.
To me, it's quite true tho. ((:

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

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What is my personality love style?

Here is the analysis:

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

reference from : http://www.quizbox.com/

hahahaha, enough of quizzes.
cyaaaaa...